A Bestower Of Blessings

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There is a light in my existence, a comfort I have known, from the earliest moments I could remember till this very day. A comfort I have craved, leaned upon and at times, completely taken for granted. One I knew would be with me wherever I went and whatever I did. Even without conscious appreciation, I knew deep within my being, that I could always depend upon my maternal grandmother, my Naniama and the copious prayers – duas to be precise – that she sent out for me.

We lived nearly half a world away from each other, separated by countries, oceans and time zones. Our physical meetings numbered less than ten, so I sometimes wondered what inspired the fierce love and devotion I was blessed to have.

I always thought it was because I was the favourite granddaughter but have come to realise this is probably not true. I don’t know how she did it, but it seems that all us grandchildren, we each felt the most favourite. Perhaps because she sent her power duas out to all of us and as old age crept up on her, she found more time to make more duas.

It got to be that her and I would have entire conversations which would begin with me saying salam and her responding by making continuous dua after dua for the next fifteen to twenty minutes – for me, my health, my happiness, my spouse, my children, my spiritual state – for just everything. I never wanted to hang up. I never wanted her to stop. I would close my eyes and soak her words in. Imagine them rising like golden orbs from her beautiful, weathered hands up into the sacred realms, where they would then be collected and accepted without question or reserve.

Nothing really ever felt impossible or hopeless because I knew Naniama was there, making those duas like it was her job. The few times I called to request her prayers for something specific, she would listen but also remind me that I was in her duas always – which to me meant, I was in her heart always. What can I give you she would ask other than dua?  But truly, I sit now and wonder, could there have been anything else?

My strong, magnificent, phenomenal Naniama died today. She went with a calm serenity and a passing that was peaceful and gentle. She has gone back to her Maker, whom she loved so deeply and lived for so completely.  I am not sad for her, but I am sad for us. Who now will hold me in their heart always? Whose blessings will surround us at all moments? Lift us at all times? Our unstoppable dua giver has moved on.

And now it’s time for us to give back: Lovely Naniama, best Bari-Amee, what else can I give you other than dua?




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  • Reply Mariam February 16, 2018 at 8:35 pm

    The Prophet saw holds you in his heart and thanks for the beautiful reflection 🌹❤️

    • Reply Mamanushka February 18, 2018 at 9:05 pm

      Thank you for your beautiful comment. Peace and Blessings be upon him 💛💜💛💜

  • Reply Ayesha January 30, 2018 at 7:29 pm

    Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajioon. The gap left by our elders can never filled and it never gets easier we just find a way to deal with it. My Baba ( nana) left such a gap in my life. He always encouraged us to achieve excellence and whole heartedly appreciated all his grand children. Till date, my smallest of achievements remind me of how happy and proud he would have been of me. May Allah grant them highest rank in Jannah. Aameen

  • Reply Uzma Hussain January 30, 2018 at 6:53 pm

    Asalamu Aleikom,
    Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilayhi Raji’un, May Allah SWT Grant her a beautiful place in the highest of Jannah, and Give you all Sabr-e-Jamila.
    I am truly sorry for your loss.
    Your Naniama sounds like a beam of light, a beautiful person inside and out.
    I lost my AmiG (Naniama) 9 years ago and my Father 1 year ago.
    May we all be able to make Dua, and read for them, always.
    May Allah Forgive us all.

  • Reply Sidra Siddiqui January 30, 2018 at 6:18 pm

    This gave me goosebumps and teminded me of my Nana whom we lost almost 8 years ago. A man who had devoted his life to Allah, every action and word of his only seeking the pleasure of his Rabb. Every time I spoke to him, he would shower me with duas. It was a given that Nana would make dua for me, for everything, for anything- Nana’s duas would work, would be answered, always. And I feel like all the blessings I have been bestowed with are a result of his (and my parents’) duas for me. It is a blessing to have a grandparent to look up to, to want to emulate. And while they go back to their creator, like all of us eventually will, they leave behind a great legacy, and a never fading memory of them.

    My condolences to you and your family. May Allah grant you Nani elevated ranks in jannah, aameen!

    • Reply Mamanushka February 18, 2018 at 9:13 pm

      Dear Sidra, apologies for not responding earlier. Thank you for sharing about your Nana ❤️ MashAllah, what an amazing experience to have such a wonderful, loving and beloved person in your life and heart. ❤️ Ameen to all your duas. May all our grandparents be granted eternal joy and may our duas for them be answered as swiftly as their duas for us.

  • Reply Shirley January 30, 2018 at 9:33 am

    Assalamo Alykom, I am sorry for the pain you have in the loss of your beautiful Naniama. May Allah grant ease for you and your family.

    • Reply Mamanushka January 30, 2018 at 5:24 pm

      Dear Shirley, thank you for your kind words and du’a. I truly feel them. 💛

  • Reply Nabila Munawar January 29, 2018 at 12:34 pm

    so beautiful and so true. Thanl you for this and all my love and duas for Nanima. x

    • Reply Mamanushka January 30, 2018 at 5:20 pm

      Thank you for your love and duas, they mean everything ❤️

  • Reply Pabx January 29, 2018 at 8:41 am

    Wow SubhanAllah what could be better than duas?

    • Reply Mamanushka January 30, 2018 at 5:19 pm

      When all’s said and done, there definitely isn’t anything better 💜

  • Reply Mariam A. Issaka January 29, 2018 at 8:12 am

    Salaam, I lost my grandma a few weeks ago. She was like yours. Always praying for us. I write this with tears streaming down even though am in a public transport.
    May Allah grant them Jannah.

    • Reply Mamanushka January 30, 2018 at 4:43 pm

      Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilayhi Raji’un. So sorry to hear of your Grandma’s passing. It is a great loss. May Allah grant you and your family ease at this time and your Grandma an everlasting abode in the highest of heavens – in the company of all whom she loved.

  • Reply Bibi January 29, 2018 at 7:24 am

    Beautiful and moving. Tears (too!) This reminded me of my nan and my mum and their powerful du’a, and now I look forward to being a non-stop du’a-giver too! Thanks for sharing. 🙂 Sending you lots of du’a, Bibi x

    • Reply Mamanushka January 30, 2018 at 4:29 pm

      SubhanAllah, we will never know which of our happineses is due to their du’as for us. Thank you.

  • Reply UT January 29, 2018 at 1:20 am

    Allah. what a beautiful beautiful testimony to the greatness a human being can reach. Tears. Thank you so much for sharing this. You have uplifted me and given me something new to aspire to.
    with great love and dua,

    your sister

    • Reply Mamanushka January 30, 2018 at 4:26 pm

      Thank you for taking the time to read this post and respond with these lovely words. She was indeed a great human. A true inspiration. 💛

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